一月十三日

哇！原来已经有这么一段时间没有写东西了。

假期的感觉真好。呆在家里或到处走走都让我觉得时间在我这一边。

a pink pot with a pink love shape flower given by my buddy is on my table, beside my ibook. It reminds me a lot about the choice i made and he made during our three months leadership programme.

Quite a lot of crazy memories floating in my mind. the morning that i excitedly decided to give joe a wow by knocking his house door at 7 something in the morning to play an egg game with him. the morning he is so dull and down when we met at Mcdonald near his house in the morning before i went to work, every morning phone calls around 7 something that make sure i go to jogging, and return his call afer i jog, and every stretch he gave me when i see no possibilities. The wow day performance meeting in his house..the power flower and yogurt that he gave me to show me it is a choice that i am making, every phone call that we made each other everyday, from beginiing very reluctantly to it become part of our life...the night he called to cry, the night i called and cried, the night he said:" remembered hor, i am a man, call me anytime if you need and i am just 20 minutes away from your house.."when i broke to tears because of the quarrel among my sister and sister-in-law and problems after that..the evening ; the evening when we ate ice-cream with judy talking about families..the way he stand firmly believing family is the base of everything..I never saw any 'boy" of a family like him, he is loved, but yet he is not taking advantage of what people gave him, but he is actually the source of the love in his family and he is making sure that we are willing to go for the extra distance with our family...

i am constantly reminded by the stand he made to others that he never allowed anyone seeing themself smaller than who they are. And yes he is sometime like a baby in his family but he appear to me as a man who gives to others just to show how big we could be.

There are times that people say "oh you are lucky you got joe as buddy, or tell joe, eh you are lucky you have Tsuey mei..." but i would just say it is just a choice that we made to commit to another human being in our life. And believe me, it is really depend on ME, how far I want to bring this relationship to.

And now LP life is over, but there are still a lot of people around my life, that is really need my commitment to go for the extra mile with them, to go further to places that we never ever been.

the world is as big as what my heart could reach.